J-pop

聽著日文歌的mp3
想到我國中時有多迷J-pop
我家最早的一張日文專輯應該是吉田榮作
而且它是卡帶!!
後來進入CD的年代
只有少得可憐的零用錢
卻整個瞧不起台壓版
到西門町的唱片行訂日本原裝進口的CD
不只是一張600起跳的專輯
連單曲都毫不手軟的買
從TRF、安室奈美惠到Globe
同學們都瘋狂喜歡的Dreams Come True
台灣永遠都沒有代理權的Mr. Children
傑尼斯只能接受SMAP
嵐就會很不屑的說是小鬼在迷的東西了
那股熱情似乎就在高中時的Dreams Come True演唱會上燃燒光了
後來的視覺系樂團實在也不是我的菜
除了因為日劇或MTV聽聽L'Arc en Ciel或Luna Sea
似乎也沒有很喜歡濱崎步
之後也愛Misia、平井堅
但就也只買過一兩張專輯
畢竟也進入了mp3的年代了.....

聽著電腦裡的mp3覺得有點遺憾
畢竟都是大約2000年到2008年的了
很久沒聽到當年我最愛的那些歌
(驚覺應該大多是1997以前的....)
那些CD在家裡也都有很厚的灰塵了吧
突然好想把它們拿出來全部重聽一遍
想跟著吉田美和邊跳邊唱うれしい!たのしい!大好き!

裝扮的臉

"如果還有明天 你想怎樣裝扮你的臉"
我喜歡這首歌的歌詞
尤其是開頭的這一句
我們有發現我們的臉是裝扮來的嗎?

記得以前演戲時聽過一個說法
就是演員下戲後沒卸妝是不能出後台甚至去觀眾席
因為你帶著妝、穿著戲服時
你就是你所扮演的角色
必須要尊重觀眾跟你演的角色

我們每天不也都在扮演某個角色嗎?
選擇要用什麼樣的面貌被看見
這並不是在說我們要扮演雙面人
人前一個樣人後一個樣
而是多多少少都會選擇什麼被看見什麼不被看見
塑造某種形象
裝扮一張臉

至少我相信我是這樣的人
即便我自認為我表現出的都是真正的我
但卻不代表必須是完整的我
當我覺得不需要被被知道時
那就不會有人知道
雖然我討厭被誤會
但大多時候我覺得不需要向別人解釋我自己
我願意分享關於我的事
但總難免在選擇哪些該說哪些不該說
我怕真正地被人看透
那就像赤身裸體被人品頭論足
人不總要有些事只留給自己嗎?

我想我應該還有很多的明天
我會繼續裝扮我的臉
並小心翼翼地不讓觀眾看到帶著妝卻穿著睡衣的我

No Matter What

"I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not"

Yap, I know, no matter what....

"No Matter What" - Boyzone

No matter what they tell us
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach us
What we believe is true

No matter what they call us
However they attack
No matter where they take us
We'll find our own way back

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know our love forever
I know, no matter what

If only tears were laughter
If only night was day
If only prayers were answered (hear my prayers)
Then we would hear God say

No matter what they tell you
No matter what they do
No matter what they teach you
What we believe is true

And I will keep you safe and strong
And shelter from the storm
No matter where it's barren
A dream is being born

No matter who they follow
No matter where they lead
No matter how they judge us
I'll be everyone you need

No matter if the sun don't shine
Or if the skies are blue
No matter what the end is
My life began with you

I can't deny what I believe
I can't be what I'm not
I know this love's forever
That's all that matters now
No matter what

No matter what

No, no matter
That's all that matters to me

太多

太多了或許真的不太好....



陳綺貞 - 太多
作詞：陳綺貞　作曲：陳綺貞

喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻　但不能喜歡太多
在地鐵站或美術館　孤獨像睡眠一樣餵養我

以永無止境的墜落　需要音樂取暖
喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻　但不能喜歡　太多

喜歡一個喝著紅酒的女孩　在下雨音樂奏起的時候
把她送上鐵塔　給全世界的人寫明信片

像一隻鳥　在最高的地方歌聲嘹亮
喜歡一個喝著紅酒的女孩　但不能喜歡　太多

喜歡一個陽光照射的角落　但不能喜歡太多
是幼稚園的小朋友　笑聲像睡眠一樣打擾我

我們輕輕的揮一揮手　凝結照片的傷口
我喜歡一個陽光照射的角落　但不能喜歡　太多

喜歡一個人孤獨的時刻　但不能喜歡　太多

最近很執迷的Avenue Q

因為有原聲帶的mp3就天天反覆的聽
結果整天腦子裡都是裡面的歌
加上學會了怎麼放歌在blog上
就決定再放一首我很喜歡的歌

這是Kate Monster在帝國大廈頂樓等不到Princeton時唱的歌
我看這齣戲時還沒去過帝國大廈
而且這種寫信約在哪個景點見面
然後信被從中攔截讓另一方空等而失望的橋段還頗老梗
但還是很喜歡這個段落
Kate是個很可愛的角色
看到她難過地唱著這首歌一個人在帝國大廈吹風
都忍不住覺得男人實在是太壞了......

There's A Fine Fine Line My Music - by Avenue Q Original Broadway Cast Recording

There's a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There's a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There's a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there's a fine, fine line between "You're wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn't love you back it isn't such a crime,
But there's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity, I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line between together and not
And there's a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you're still in your prime...

There's a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

I wish I could go back to college

我在紐約時看的音樂劇Avenue Q
我沒甚麼概念的情況下看了這齣戲
只在之前稍微上網看了一下介紹
但我看完後很喜歡這齣戲
他的音樂或許不像The phantom of the opera, CAT或Les Miserables那麼經典
不是很優美或很華麗
相對來說都是些朗朗上口的歌讓你走出戲院滿腦子都是那些旋律
但我很喜歡他用玩偶和人一起演出的呈現方式
(最炫的大概是布偶的床戲吧XD)

其實這齣戲算是一個輕鬆的喜劇
裡面也有一些感人的橋段
當唱到I wish I could go back to college這首歌的時候
我忍不住眼眶濕了
或許因為現在年紀大了對這首歌特別有感覺...

其實我應該是一個很喜歡學東西的人吧~
但念PhD又是另一件事了
修課似乎不再是你應該花太多時間的事
你是來做Research的
但我喜歡學各種新的東西似乎不是一直卡在一個題目上打轉
尤其是當我轉不出來時
其實蠻享受上課學到新的東西、念書了發現自己好像讀通了甚麼的成就感
但感覺自己會了確考不出好成績卻令人很沮喪

大學時我到了三四年級修了很多文學院的課
我學德文、中國近現代小說、外文系的英文戲劇、短篇小說、戲劇系的劇本導讀
我很開心自己能夠有這麼多資源去上自己有興趣的課
(要出國時老師看到我的成績單居然說我大概是要出國念文學的XD)
在機械系也能選自己喜歡的選修課然後把討厭的必修課應付過去
我想這就是大學生開心的地方吧~
只要擔心考試、報告、不要被當掉
事情很單純
只要學分夠畢業
可以修任何喜歡的課
以前我像海綿一樣吸收各種不同的液體
但現在卻浸在瀝青裡
似乎不再能吸收甚至有種被榨乾的感覺

I Wish I Could Go Back To College My Music - by Avenue Q Original Broadway Cast Recording

KATE MONSTER:
I wish I could go back to college.
Life was so simple back then.

NICKY:
What would I give to go back and live in a dorm with a meal plan again!

PRINCETON:
I wish I could go back to college.
In college you know who you are.
You sit in the quad, and think, "Oh my God!
I am totally gonna go far!"

ALL:
How do I go back to college?
I don't know who I am anymore!

PRINCETON:
I wanna go back to my room and find a message in dry-erase pen on the door!
Ohhh...
I wish I could just drop a class...

NICKY:
Or get into a play...

KATE MONSTER:
Or change my major...

PRINCETON:
Or fuck my T.A.

ALL:
I need an academic advisor to point the way!
We could be...
Sitting in the computer lab,
4 A.M. before the final paper is due,
Cursing the world 'cause I didn't start sooner,
And seeing the rest of the class there, too!

PRINCETON:
I wish I could go back to college!

ALL:
How do I go back to college?!
AHHHH...

PRINCETON:
I wish I had taken more pictures.

NICKY:
But if I were to go back to college,
Think what a loser I'd be-
I'd walk through the quad,
And think "Oh my God..."

ALL:
"These kids are so much younger than me."