I wish I could go back to college

我在紐約時看的音樂劇Avenue Q
我沒甚麼概念的情況下看了這齣戲
只在之前稍微上網看了一下介紹
但我看完後很喜歡這齣戲
他的音樂或許不像The phantom of the opera, CAT或Les Miserables那麼經典
不是很優美或很華麗
相對來說都是些朗朗上口的歌讓你走出戲院滿腦子都是那些旋律
但我很喜歡他用玩偶和人一起演出的呈現方式
(最炫的大概是布偶的床戲吧XD)

其實這齣戲算是一個輕鬆的喜劇
裡面也有一些感人的橋段
當唱到I wish I could go back to college這首歌的時候
我忍不住眼眶濕了
或許因為現在年紀大了對這首歌特別有感覺...

其實我應該是一個很喜歡學東西的人吧~
但念PhD又是另一件事了
修課似乎不再是你應該花太多時間的事
你是來做Research的
但我喜歡學各種新的東西似乎不是一直卡在一個題目上打轉
尤其是當我轉不出來時
其實蠻享受上課學到新的東西、念書了發現自己好像讀通了甚麼的成就感
但感覺自己會了確考不出好成績卻令人很沮喪

大學時我到了三四年級修了很多文學院的課
我學德文、中國近現代小說、外文系的英文戲劇、短篇小說、戲劇系的劇本導讀
我很開心自己能夠有這麼多資源去上自己有興趣的課
(要出國時老師看到我的成績單居然說我大概是要出國念文學的XD)
在機械系也能選自己喜歡的選修課然後把討厭的必修課應付過去
我想這就是大學生開心的地方吧~
只要擔心考試、報告、不要被當掉
事情很單純
只要學分夠畢業
可以修任何喜歡的課
以前我像海綿一樣吸收各種不同的液體
但現在卻浸在瀝青裡
似乎不再能吸收甚至有種被榨乾的感覺

I Wish I Could Go Back To College My Music - by Avenue Q Original Broadway Cast Recording

KATE MONSTER:
I wish I could go back to college.
Life was so simple back then.

NICKY:
What would I give to go back and live in a dorm with a meal plan again!

PRINCETON:
I wish I could go back to college.
In college you know who you are.
You sit in the quad, and think, "Oh my God!
I am totally gonna go far!"

ALL:
How do I go back to college?
I don't know who I am anymore!

PRINCETON:
I wanna go back to my room and find a message in dry-erase pen on the door!
Ohhh...
I wish I could just drop a class...

NICKY:
Or get into a play...

KATE MONSTER:
Or change my major...

PRINCETON:
Or fuck my T.A.

ALL:
I need an academic advisor to point the way!
We could be...
Sitting in the computer lab,
4 A.M. before the final paper is due,
Cursing the world 'cause I didn't start sooner,
And seeing the rest of the class there, too!

PRINCETON:
I wish I could go back to college!

ALL:
How do I go back to college?!
AHHHH...

PRINCETON:
I wish I had taken more pictures.

NICKY:
But if I were to go back to college,
Think what a loser I'd be-
I'd walk through the quad,
And think "Oh my God..."

ALL:
"These kids are so much younger than me."